Let me start by saying how grateful I am that you and I have finally crossed paths.
For so long I have kept my own personal health journey to myself, as it meant that in sharing it with you I would have to own up and take full responsibility over the way I was living (or not living) my life. Also, I had a deep fear of being judged by those that knew me and even those that didn’t know me. Let’s face it, eating disorders aren’t exactly the sexiest of introductions!
However I have had enough of living out of fear and I hope this blog allows me the platform not only to share my story and health journey with you but also encourages and educates other women to speak up and make changes towards a healthier, more balanced life. At the end of the day, life is way too short to be unhappy!
At just nineteen years old I turned from a spontaneous, happy and confident girl who took life by the balls, to a sad, lonely and insecure girl who was driven by routine and the comfort of her own bedroom. Only was I to get a rude awakening from the powers that be that this was due to an incidence a few years prior that I had never allowed myself to properly acknowledge and deal with. You know the old saying ‘sliding it under the rug’, well my rug was very bumpy!
After high school I had a falling out with my best friend over a boy. Now before you think “How could she!” or “Hasn’t she heard of girl code!” trust me I have. However for the first time in my life I listened to my gut and it worked out to be the best decision I have ever made, as I have been with my boyfriend and best friend for over five years now.
That is not to say it has all been smooth sailing. As a result of my decision I lost many of my close high school girlfriends and going to an all girl’s school this had a major impact on my life, which at the time I completely ignored. It was not until two years later, at twenty years of age, that I developed the eating disorder Orthorexia Nervosa. For those of you who don’t know what that is, I essentially developed an obsession with being healthy. “That doesn’t sound so bad” I hear you say….oh how I wish you were right.
Looking back I can now see that in my inability to control what I thought my friends were thinking or saying about me, I could at least control one aspect of my life and that was food and exercise…and control I did!
With the help of my perfectionist nature, I cut out everything I used to love in the aspiration of becoming the healthiest version of myself I could be. Overnight I eliminated carbs, fats, sugar, alcohol and worst of all….chocolate! Oh and on top of all that I would run 10km rain, hail or shine. Every. Single. Day. Isn’t that what healthy people do?
Hello boring my name is Georgia, nice to meet you!
Without realising, after all I was only ever aspiring to be healthy, I lost a lot of weight and to me that was a sign of success. After all, if social media is anything to go by, in losing weight I was being ‘healthy’! As the number on the scales went down, the more in control I felt. The more healthy I was.
At this point in my life I felt very isolated and lonely. I had no one to reach out to. Dietitians scared the bejesus out of me! Don’t forget that owing to my perfectionist nature meant that I had read all about how to be healthy. They were not going to tell me something I did not already know.
To this day, I am so grateful to my parents, boyfriend and brothers for not leaving me to fight this journey on my own. I remember one night having a conversation with my dad (the man that could always fix anything but was in tears because he could not fix me) that he just wanted me to be happy. It broke my heart that I had broken his. Since that night I have been on a mission to gain back not only the weight I had lost but also my happiness.
This is not to say that the next morning I woke up and was instantly the old happy, confident Georgia. I am not going to lie; it was bloody hard. Each day I constantly work on making that loud voice in my head that says, “Georgia you aren’t healthy enough/good enough/pretty enough/skinny enough” just that little bit quieter. More and more these days I even tell her to shut the front door (put politely).
So this brings me to why I am here with you right now, six years on. As my confidence started growing back and I began my journey towards finding a more balanced relationship with food and exercise, I started talking to women, of all ages, and realised that there were way too many people suffering with eating disorders/disordered eating in silence.
If I had of had someone there like a big sister telling me that I was going to be ok, then maybe my journey would not have felt so lonely.
Since finishing my degree in Psychology and Nutritional Science and becoming a Nutritionist, I have become so determined to help women heal their relationship with food and exercise and bring back the self-love and confidence every woman deserves. I am currently furthering my studies and in my final year of a Masters of Nutrition and Dietetics.
My vision for my blog is for you to feel apart of a sisterhood, where young girls and women come together and share their experiences of finding a more balanced way of life. I of all people understand that as much as social media can be a positive thing, it can also be our worst enemy. These days we are bombarded with so many different messages about how to be healthy. I don’t know about you but I feel exhausted after scrolling through Facebook, Instagram and Snapchat and that is before I even jump out of bed. I hope this blog can put to rest some of the current health fads going around because at the end of the day our relationship with food should not be complicated or all-consuming.
I will let you in on a little secret, once you begin to heal your relationship with food and exercise, life begins to be bloody amazing again!
I hope you will join me on my journey of finding and living a more balanced way of life.
Sending you love and happiness.